30 July 2011
I saw you one mile long, decade long
step ago on that beach where sand
washed back and forth at our feet,
your eyes like two chirrup notes,
a bird sighting its tree,
the call of the sea answered
in the fist of a brain tightening
over knowables not ascertained
but inherited like DNA
or bad character flaws.
a little crook in your smile
swindled my soul of its armour
and I saw you and the whole stretch
of what it would be, you and me -
the never closing mouth of a vast intimacy –
as eyes sought eyes under a
cloud-covered sun, the day bright
and precarious, like our love.
- – -
a hush on the phone, a dropped moment
and you are all underbrush, ferns,
delicate plants curling from sun.
I press on, my words a brisk breeze
agitating tall branches, a shadow-puppetry
of light falling to damp earth and its
fungal undergrowth of silent unfurlings:
between every word of ‘no’ is a curtailed ‘yes’
latticing its spores beneath the forest floor
to poke through rotting leaves, in the furrowed
bark of a tree, under mossy rocks bloom
soft white gills of attention
oh this is what it is to say yes in a hundred places
tiny hands pushing myself out from in,
this is love working its surgery on me
all my hearts opening and closing
their valves as I breathe.